Spontaneous Purging & Recalibrating

I’ve been listening to this short meditation, intention, focus by Michael Beckwith for the past couple of weeks. I resonate with it because I can just listen and do my best to “allow the deep meaning” of this prayer to take hold in this psyche.

Yesterday, for whatever reason, I had breakfast and then not long after, felt extremely sick and then proceeded to throw up. I don’t often throw up, but when it happens, I FEEL so much LIGHTER, like I have released something I really didn’t want to “eat (energetically speaking)”, because there usually is a noticeable “energetic component” to these occurrences.

I fasted for the rest of the day and drank calming herbal tea. It reminded me of how we as a species eat way too much. During my yoga teaching days I tried not to eat after 6pm and if I did it was a light snack. I ate two meals a day, the bigger meal about 3pm.

I also recall during a 10 day silent retreat, the repeat retreaters had their last meal for the day at lunch time.

Years earlier I used to fast for one day a week.

This last experience resurfaced those memories and I might return to some of those ways of eating or not. If anything, my body is telling me I need smaller meals and I need to focus on more Heart Opening! I also have to choose wisely what conversations are happening around me, by those who might be sharing the table and maybe even refrain from eating, because we rarely consider that every conversation we have, words we read etc are also “energetic food.”

This morning it is like whatever I was letting go of has disappeared, although, I’m not going to push my digestive system physically or psychically.

Anyway, here is that short meditation/prayer with Michael Beckwith & a couple of tracks to follow in the next post: